Sunday of my Life

To be honest with all of you, this is something that has been on my mind lately. One of the side-effects others have been noticing in me from my medication is its effects on my memory.

I don’t remember things.

Seriously.

Someone will tell me something, and ten minutes later… *poof*… it’s gone. I have trouble remembering:

1. Faces and names
2. Things that I have to do
3. Things that I have to tell people
4. Things I meant to put down on this list
5. How to spell words
6. The proper usage of some words
7. The list goes on….

It scares me, it really does. I’m no longer relaiable in how I do things, I can no longer be relied upon to remember things said to me or meetings that I’ve had. I don’t think I can really describe how much fear this fills me with. I can see the difference between what I was and what I am now. I can see the changes this medication has wrought in me; some good, some bad. The bad does not outweigh the good though, and there are some parts of me that I don’t want to go back to being, so I’ll continue wth the medication despite what I can see changing in me.

In a year or two I’ll (hopefully) be employed in an industry where my job will rely upon me remembering everything and so by then I must work out a system whereby I can keep track of what I’m supposed to be doing, and remember that I am keeping track of it. If I cannot do that, I don’t think I’ll even pass my course, becuase as my memory goes, thereby also goes my concentration, my attention span and my organisation skills. Without those I have no hope at all. Partially this post is just me getting my thoughs and fears down inot some kind of format, partially it’s a call for help. I can’t be the only one out there who has trouble remembering things. Are there any practical solutions for a guy in IT to use for this? I’ve tried writing things down, but then I forget that I’ve written them down. I don’t know what I can do but, by God, I need to do something!

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